Episode 43
The Baima Temple's shaman and I...
...know each other.
Let me talk to him.
You can go there and become a monk.
Wait. Who said that I want to become a monk?
I don't plan to do that.
I think this is what the dream means.
This is not what the dream means.
Why are you getting more confused as you age?
I'll just be honest with you. There is no such dream.
Who said that I want to become a monk? I want to get married.
I understand now.
In these few days, make yourself available...
...and get a carriage. We'll go back to our village.
Why are we going back to our village?
We know everyone there. We know the place well.
Who knows that...
...we might be able to find a girl with a child for you.
I don't want one with a child. I can do it.
Besides, we don't need to go back. There is one at home.
At home?
Who is it?
Xiao Yuan.
Will she do? -Of course.
The both of us are a match made in heaven.
She doesn't mind my weakness. I don't mind her being weird.
Two wrongs make a right. We're just right for each other.
When did you...
...have such an intention?
It's a long story.
If both of us really get married, you're the matchmaker.
Remember that in Ye City, you asked me to keep an eye on her?
I kept an eye on her wherever she went.
As I kept looking at her, my head...
...began to want her.
This girl...
...is really good.
What a good match.
I recall it now.
She is from the House of Supervision.
All right.
Where are you going? - Come, let's propose to her.
I'm not going. How embarrassing.
Let her know first and test the water.
I'll wait for your letter.
All right.
It's master, isn't it?
Xiao Yuan.
It has been a while.
Master, you're too busy.
Master, what can I help you?
Let's have a chat.
Have a seat.
Xiao Yuan, I remember that when you first entered our mansion...
...you were just a little girl.
In a blink of an eye, even you have grey hair now.
You're right. So many years have passed.
Lun has grown up now.
Ling Yun...
...is gone too.
Do you have any plans for your future?
How can a servant have any plans?
I can only stay here and serve you and take care of your sons.
You're not a servant.
You don't have to go back to the House of Supervision anymore.
All these years...
...I'm afraid you know that...
...many things have happened in our family.
Since you mentioned that, I'll be honest with you then.
I'm indeed working for the House of Supervision.
I was sent by the imperial court to monitor your family.
Lady treated me well. Master treated me well too.
Right now, everywhere you go, in or out of the court...
...you've the final say.
There is no use for me to carry out my responsibility.
My skill is already rusty.
For master not to blame me...
...but gave me a roof over my head and food to eat...
...I'm grateful for your kindness.
Listen to yourself.
Actually...
...you're the saviour of our family.
Let's get to the point.
Xiao Yuan, do you want to...
...have a family?
Family? To me, everyone here is my family.
I meant...
...do you want to...
...have your own family?
Do you want to have a husband?
Do you want to get married?
We human can't live the rest of our lives alone, right?
For your good intention...
...I do understand.
You understand?
Tell me what you understand.
Although Lady brought me here...
...you can't treat me like a servant.
No one's treating you like a servant.
When have I treated Hou Ji as a servant?
Then I want an official ceremony. -Sure.
Madam and Lady's rooms, I won't be able to sleep well in it.
You'll sleep...
That's inappropriate. Let's build a new room.
I'll be straightforward.
If you want to marry me, you need to do it officially.
Master.
I want it officially, but is there something wrong?
I'm proposing on behalf of Hou Ji.
That's what I thought.
Your status is so distinguished.
Why would you involve yourself in other's affairs?
Then, do you agree?
Hou Ji is very sincere.
Let me think about it.
What are we eating?
It's not time yet. Don't open it.
Have a seat.
Master.
Did you ask her?
About what?
Xiao Yuan.
I did. -You didn't ask?
You forgot about Butcher Zhang's daughter, and it's been decades.
You've forgotten about this too? -I said, I did ask her.
You did? What did she say?
She said that she'll consider.
What's there to consider?
I'm already so old. -Why are you in such a rush?
She is a girl. It's a huge decision for her.
If you're so anxious, go and ask her yourself.
Let her consider slowly then.
I've been waiting for more than a decade. I can wait.
When can we have our dinner?
The dinner needs time, too.
Xiao Yuan!
What happened to you, Xiao Yuan?
Say something, Xiao Yuan!
The one...
...who attacked me...
...is...
...Sima Zhao.
Xiao Yuan.
Brother Hou Ji.
Master...
...told me...
...about you.
I'll marry you.
All right. -I'll marry you.
Xiao Yuan!
I'm going to kill him.
He is your son.
I don't have a son like him.
Father, you asked for me?
Have you eaten? -Not yet.
Father, why aren't you eating?
You mustn't be like me. You need to take care of yourself.
I'm alone. I've no appetite.
Come. Eat with me.
I'll eat with you then.
Mother used to cook porridge well. Father, you like to eat it too.
For the sake of mother, eat some.
Here.
When your mother gave biflh to you...
...there was a complication.
We thought that...
...you and your mother will not survive.
When Physician Hua came...
...I told him that I don't want the baby.
I wanted your mother to live on.
Your mother...
...gave up her life...
...to give birth to you.
Looking at the two of you, I thought to myself that...
...in this life, as long as our family is together...
...safe and sound...
...that's all enough for me.
Mother is not here anymore.
But brother and I are still here. We'll be filial to you.
By having me around you is just as if mother is here with you too.
Your eyes are just like your mother's.
I'm worried about you the most.
Since you were young, you've been fighting hard...
...and running around the border between life and death.
Even if I wanted to stop you...
...I can't.
I understand.
I'll not disappoint you.
The hardest thing that we human need to overcome...
...is desire.
It grows easily...
...but suppressing it...
...is hard.
Whatever you said is right.
My entire life has been a fight with my own desire.
But I never thought that I fight for it...
...its karma would happen to my sons.
I don't quite understand what you're trying to say.
But I know that...
...everything that big brother and younger brother do is...
...for the good of Sima family.
Zhao. -I'm here.
How long do you want to keep it from me?
You took the opportunity to massacre...
...when your brother was injured.
You didn't even let Xiahou Xuan go.
Did you...
...do it for our family?
I killed Xiahou Xuan...
...because he attacked big brother...
...and he wanted to frame our family up.
If you think that I'm wrong, I'm willing to be punished.
But I'll never admit that I did it out of bad intentions.
Well, you used He Yan...
...to manipulate Cao Shuang...
...because you hoped to see...
...Cao Shuang and I...
...will fight at war, didn't you?
Cao Shuang has hated father for a very long time.
He'll never give up until he kills you.
I only gave He Yan wrong information to deceive him.
I didn't do it for my own benefits.
What about Xiahou Hui?
Sister-in-law.
Father.
Sister-in-law is from Xiahou family.
She followed big brother to...
...the place where Uncle Ji Bu was training the army.
She saw everything.
If Xiahou Xuan finds out...
...with his character...
...he will not have mercy on our family.
If you were in my shoes...
...what would you do?
What about Xiao Yuan?
It's all my fault.
I deserve to die a thousand times.
Now, our family is safe. You're doing fine too.
Kill me.
My son.
Where is he?
He is my brother.
Brother.
Brother, I've wronged you!
I was the one who killed sister-in-law!
I was the one who killed sister-in-law.
I've wronged you. Kill me.
I've wronged you.
You and I...
...grew up together.
We did everything together and were inseparable.
I've always...
...treated you well, protected you and cared for you.
I couldn't bear to see you get hurt...
...or suffer.
Because my mother gave birth to you too.
Whenever I'm out on a mission...
...Hui would always wonder if you've eaten or if you're well.
She'll always think about you to make sure you've food and clothes.
And now, why did you end up...
...being a human-eating wolf?
Why?
Brother.
Let me tell you why.
How did you know that...
...father didn't order me to do this?
Did he? -He is sitting over there.
Go and ask him.
Big brother.
Kill me!
Letting Zhao go...
...is your decision.
All our family wants is to be invincible.
The porridge is turning cold. Hurry up and eat it.
The sword...
...is no longer...
...in my hands.
Let's eat together.